I think it is hard to listen someone talk/vent without saying anything.  One of the things that I have learned from parenting is that, children just want their feelings acknowledge.  They don’t want solutions, or “silver lining” sayings.  They just want to be heard.

I am currently going through some emotions now and want to talk to someone and just have someone simply listen.  Unfortunately, I realize no one in my support group (friends, family, even therapist) can do that for me.  If I turn to them, I already know what they will say.  And it’s not what I need to hear.  It is not what will get me through this.

And that sucks.

I know that I will get through this (eventually), that I am strong, that I should be grateful, and that things could be a lot worse.

But still.  Am I not allowed to have these feelings?

I feel like I can never really put my guard down and can’t be the real me. Or even just falter.  That I always have to stand and keep moving.