Green to Red

My mood  went from a calm green to a bright red to a blood red.  Now I’m a swirl of red and black.

I am tired of going in circles.  No matter how much I try and how much I anticipate, it blows up in my face.

I can try to make things easier, give guidance, and be patient and understanding, but will it ever be enough?

My mind is in chaos.  It is at odds with my heart.

The cold inside me wants to break out and freeze all that is around me.

I’m tired of the pain.

Shocked

He was only 50.

Michael Jackson (8.29.58 – 6.25.09)..

I know there are some people who aren’t….shocked, bothered, etc.  I am not one of those.  I’m in shock.

Heck, I’m still in shock when Aaliyah died a few weeks before 9/11 and I’m still in shock about Heath Ledger. As a matter of fact, I didn’t realize that Ed McMahon passed away earlier this week. Crimney!

I remember watching Star Search when I was a little girl.

My first memory (that I can recall) of seeing Michael was in Thriler. I don’t recall his early years, cause well I wasn’t even born yet.  He was a great singer and performer. I don’t give a damn about his personal life.

When I hear his songs, it takes me back to when I first heard it or what I did.  It is tragic for him to pass away so soon.  I figured he had at least another 10 years left.

Michael Jackson – Black & White

RIP

Beginning/Continuation

About a year ago, I had my Capstone Defense and passed.  I put the calendar project, on the back burner to take care of things and get my brain off of it.  But now I’m ready to begin again.

I have fresh eyes and new ideas.  I am ready.

Let the fun begin!